Miss Alpha now. Mrs. Alpha someday…

I don’t know if this post is going to be relatable at all.

I don’t know if you feel anything like I do.

I have been holding on this post for a while… But I feel like today is a good day to post it.

Watch this video first and then we shall talk:


First. Yup! That’s the love of my life. The one that has ownership of my heart since the first Fast and Furious movie. Ok ok… I am totally joking. It’s not like I am “in love” for reals. I just love what he represents.

Vin Diesel

Ah! If you are anything like me and love those movies, I know I know… not the cleanest movies since there are always women in hardly any clothes, random and pointless sex scenes and songs that they don’t necessarily give Glory to God… BUT the cars that speed, guns, cool guys, and terrible acting… cmon! They are awesome!!… action movies are my thing!

Anyways… if you are anything like me you know that Vin Diesel is the jefe. The boss for those who don’t know Spanish. 🤷🏼‍♀️

He is the alpha dude that has the vision, the plan, the authority, the experience, the one that everybody listens to… He is the head of every operation. He is a true alpha.

Then there is Letty… his girlfriend or whatever 😑 She is an alpha as well. You see… they are both so freakishly strong which makes the “family” a very strong one. She always goes for whatever Dominic (Vin Diesel) says. However she can kick butt all by herself.

She can manage the whole team/family if she wanted to but she doesn’t. She follows his lead.

I identify with movies like these ones. I get Inspiration with movies like these ones. This team you see in this movie have a mission in mind. I cannot remember what the actual mission is but they have something they have to do. Lets face it. These movies are not the best ones and usually their mission is kinda dumb BUT they have a mission.

I want exactly what Letty has.

I want a relationship with someone who is an alpha. I want to be in a relationship with someone who is already doing something for God. I want someone who is all deep in it!

I relate with Letty. I do. I mean… I have kicked butt all by myself ALL OF MY LIFE. I am where I am because of The Lord and because I took every opportunity He gave me. I have never needed any guy to get where I am.

I am truly an alpha. I don’t need anyone… BUT I WANT SOMEONE.

You see, I can go to Tijuana and have a MicroSite two blocks from the nest of all the cartels. I can go where all the prostitutes are and minister to them while their pimp is screaming at me to stop. I can face people like that guy called La Rana and not show any fear. I can be in Tijuana all by myself without a car and come back home without a scratch. I CAN DO THAT AND MORE!

I don’t need anyone checking on me but… I WANT SOMEONE CHECKING ON ME.

“Did you make it home safe?”

“Let me pick you up!”

“Text me when you get home”

“Text me when you get in the Uber”

“No, I got it!”

“How can I pray for you?”

“No Esli, I am bringing the food!”

I need someone to teach me to that I don’t have to be Miss independent and Miss Alpha ALL THE TIME. I have been doing it for a long time.

You see… I will always be me. I will always be doing crazy things for God. I can do it alone. I just don’t want to anymore. I am sick of being alone.

In these movies, Vin Diesel always gives a tough job to Letty. He lets her do things as important as what he does. He trusts her. He knows her. He knows she can do it but he always makes sure she is ok. He always makes sure she is safe. He always knows where she is. He always protects her… even when he knows she is ok, he still double checks just to show her he cares.

Yeah… I want that!


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